充电中~
Monday, March 5, 2012
你幸福吗?:)
Friday, February 10, 2012
September, month of #changes
Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Time to CHANGE! ;)
Friday, July 22, 2011
I am now learning to be a FedEx girl. Will list down for u guys what I'm planning to do. Gtg babies! Happy FRIDAYYYYY!!! Muacks! <3
Lotsoflov3,
Jingjing ♥
Wink! ;)
:: 人生中的难题 ::
Monday, March 28, 2011
但又很害怕自己没有好好珍惜难得的周末和恐惧星期日的到来。
所以最近我的星期日都是很伤心地度过的。
我得了工作恐惧症吗?
其实,谁在工作上是没有压力和面对难题呢?
我们常常小看自己,觉得自己没有办法完成;
没有办法继续走下去;觉得前面的路太难走了。
自信究竟跑哪儿去了?
其实一生人中我们也不知不觉
面对和克服了多少所谓的那“人生中的走不下去”,
不是吗?
只是自己没有察觉,
也或许是克服了难题后就会习惯性的把一切抛开
一句“终于解决了!”就把一切忘掉。
人,就是这样。
常常忘了感恩,
忘了去细考事情到底是怎么解决的。。
是我们幸运吗?
我们又是何人,会有如此幸运的待遇?
忘了感恩,就会使我们容易面对下个“人生中的走不下去”。。
就像我现在一样。
不是时候在这儿杞人忧天吧?
是应该好好地感恩,
想想究竟上主让我”幸运“了几次,
也想想该怎么从难题里寻乐吧!
不过老实说,还真想歇会儿,
就在那既遥远又亲近的家。。。
今晚,
我想家了。。。
:: 伤口 ::
Sunday, February 27, 2011
天啊~~可不可以不要受伤?
而且还是不知从哪在哪伤着的。。
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昨天查到了4月的某个周末有便宜来回机票,吉隆坡及古晋。想买哦!我答应过自己,只要有了能力,就要常回家。
不想要再像之前求学时那样,一年只回一两次。。
对了,忘了跟大家禀报小女子的最新消息!我工作了!
等待已久的恩典,我会好好珍惜哦。感谢上帝!
好了,不多说了,都凌晨三点了~小女子要入睡了哦!~各位晚安!
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祝福全天下的人今天一觉醒来都会感觉到幸福!
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P/S: 我最近会较忙哦~工作了就没那么有时间上博客~呜呜!会想念你们的!
:: February new mission ::
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Huhu~ Wanna off to bed dy.
3.03am now.
The roosters outside my house dah berkokok dy.
Morning or night nih? Huhu~
Anyway, am runsing bout one thing.
I got my job dy.
But now, I need a part time job for weekend.
Anyone got any good idea or recommend?
:(
Don't kedekut la~ :) Share with me ma. Hehe.
Need more money to make my family a better living.
This is now my "this-month-new-mission" :)
Won't give up.
Uols too! Don't give up. ❤
[p/s] Hehe~ Yah, I owe uols one recipe. Okay2. 3 recipes I know. :) Okay, 2mrw I update!!
:: 8 gone, 7 left ::
Friday, February 11, 2011
:: Back to where I belong to =) ::
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Hi! Happy Thursday! ^^
Time flies. A month time spending with family now only left 8 days..
CNY is going to end soon too. Another 7 days. :(
Ngek. Dun wan it to end so soon can or not?
Or, make the clock tick slower, perhaps? :(
The moment I appreciate the most throughout this holiday
is when I'm spending my time with my family.
Know what, I was shocked when my mum told me last week
that she realized that I had changed.
No longer that bad-tempered,
but matured.
Haha. Mum, I've grown up. No longer 18 or 20.
But 23 and 3 months now.
Well, 25 according to Lunar Calendar.
Wrinkles are starting to say hi to me.
Well, it also means that you're no longer 36.
I remember your age at 36 clearly.
Coz once I asked your age when we are at our old house,
in the kitchen.
And you answered 36.
Which is also the year my brother came to the world,
came to our family.
36 is gone. 46 is where you are now.
12 years. You're still looking young,
just like 12 years before.
But you're no longer as healthy as before.
Kinda worried, is thinking of canceling my dream looking for
an independent life in other land.
I've to re-plan. 1 year maybe.
After 1 year, perhaps it's time to look after my family.
Sister might be studying uni at that time.
Brother is going to sec school.
Teen. No longer a child.
I know, you can't handle it yourself.
I'll coming back and give you a hand,
I promise.
Just, maybe it's not easy to leave someone.
God, lead my way, please?
I need your wisdom,
I need your guidance.
Light my path,
lead my way...
It's last Sunday. My mum, sister and I went to our kebun in my hometown,
Tondong, Bau.
Actually my sis and I are the one who follow my mum and my grandma.
Want to know what we had done?
Bet you won't believe it.
With selipar jepun, track suit (belongs to my Form3 cousin),
I petik lada aka black pepper that you guys used to eat.
Haha. Sorry no photo during we all petik lada.
Not really a right time to have a photoshot session.
Unless you want to fall. Haha.
Spend like 2 hours petik lada,
then we went back (to my hometown house, Bau)
Honestly,
it feels good.
Still working, still love kerja kebun,
still love cooking.
Eh nope, I love her cooking!
Will be my best picture of the year.
Love your laughter,
it makes me remembers your laughter forever.
I miss here already.
Miss my family.
I want to back to where I belong to.
My hometown,
my family,
my mum...
:: 10 things about my Polar Bear ::
Saturday, January 8, 2011
People says, loving someone needs no reason. True also, you don't need some specific reason to love someone. Coz once the 'reason' is no longer you found it in him or her, then do you still love him or her? Hmm.. Let's don't see it as reasons, let's put it as the good in him/her. I am learning to see the good in my Mr. Polar Bear aka Jay.Sometimes, I think I am kinda demand, put too much hope on him, hoping that he could do this and that. Okay, eg, you're angry with your lover, and you hope so much that he would know why you are angry. You hope that he could guess, at least guess what happened before you get angry and pujuk you. Or, you hope that he will know what you need before you tell.
Jay is kinda slow in this matter. He can't guess me (sometimes). Which made me really mad, which made me do mad things like throwing handphones bla bla bla~ haha~ Ya, I ganas k~ ;P However, he's good indeed. He's the only one could trying to understand me all this while. K, to make it easier, let me state 10 things which he made me love him more! :)
1. He'll try to convince me in my decision. Example: We're planning on a date and tiba jeh I merajuk and said "I don't want to go". Reason: I dunno what to wear or I'm rushed. He'll wait downstairs of my house and said, don't worry, I don't mind what you wear. How about wear XXX and XXX? I like it when you wore it last time. :) *Tink!* Done. :)
2. He'll always try to fulfill my wish if he could. Example: I'm craving for XXX :'( Then he'll try to bring me to eat XXX maybe not on that day but he will. :) In short, he never let me starve. He feeds me well. Hahaha~
3. When I get sick, he's the one who buy medicine for me. :)
4. He remembers the date when my period comes and reminds me to buy Kotex and don't drink cold drinks. And when I'm confused which Kotex to buy, he'll help me to make a choice. Many guys cannot do this as some even think that it's something dirty. But he knows how precious women are and don't think that accompany girlfriend buying Kotex is a shame. :)
5. He eats whatever food that I cooked. O.o~ haha~ Even though the food is just so-so. For right now, he had tasted my chicken rice, ayam masak halia & kicap, ayam masak cendawan, tomyam, sayur campur, bolognese spaghetti, nasi goreng, toasted bread, potato wedges, glutinous rice balls, corn and seaweed soup. (There's more I think, but I can't recall dy~ haha~)
6. We had been together for 503 days till today. :) And we still sms each other like we just met. Never late reply, never lost in space, never blaming that sms is tiring.Indeed, we started e-mail each other now to foster our relationship. When we quarrel, or when each other are facing some other problems, e-mail is a good way. We could write as much as we could, pour out everything and seriously, try it out with your partner too! If you found out that sms couldn't work, slow talk couldn't work, try e-mail or write him/her a letter. Old-school but it somehow works! :)
7. In December 2009 when I was off to South Korea, he bought me a little tortoise (a soft toy) for me and want me to bring it to Korea, so that I could hold it whenever I miss him. :)
8. Recently, he just bought a new netbook, and it's in purple color. Know why? Coz he said that he remembered that I love purple. :) He's just sweet!
9. He loves kid, he loves baby. He loves to layan his sister's children. One is 9 years old, one is 7 years old and another one is just 8 days old. His gentle heart really melts me. He looks strict but he's gentle and caring!
10. If he only has 20 in his wallet, he'll share 10 with me if I'm broke. So do I. Between us, money is not the most important thing. Coz we put each other more important than money. We never mind sharing our own money with each other, even though we're not married yet.It has been 503 days darling! ^^ Many things happened between us and I know all you've done is because you love me. I promise in this year of 2011, I will do my best to make my life together with my family and you, a better one. And let's work together darling! Let's appreciate each other more and love each other more than before~ I dunno whether am I or are you the destiny for each other, but we pray for it... :)
:: Sketches on 04.01.11 ::
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
But anyway, I'm not going to right now!! ^^ Coz I know that there's always hope! I won't give up! I won't! Yeah, I'm still unemployed.. Sad huh? ^^ Yeah, a graduate still couldn't find a job like other course mates.. Hehe..
But nevermind lah.. Like I said before, we all have our own blessings and plan by God, isn't it? ^^ I had a plan, which is I want to work part time! Hmm.. Anywhere.. I will make sure on myself that I will get a part time within this week! Coz, I want A LOT OF MONEY!!! I want going back home, buy flight tickets and celebrate Chinese New Year with my family.. And I want to give pocket money to both my brother and sister.. Then buy clothes for my family.. That is my first target right now.. Uolz~ Don't laugh at me na for not having a full time job yet.. kekeke~ Coz that'll hurt me and lower down my confidence~ I kan sensitive~ Alaaa.. Uolz simpan dalam hati and gelak je.. That one I don't mind.. hahahaha~ No la.. I'm learning to be tougher! I'm not giving up looking for a permanent job! Segala-gala sindiran, carutan, kritikan, akan bertukar menjadi kekuatan, dorongan dan semangat untuk I berusaha lagi gigih! Hahahha~
Btw to all my sahabat-sahabat sekalian.. Huhu~ Cannot meet you all for a long time dy, I apologize na.. Huhu~ Wanted so much to meet you all.. Miss all of you so damn much.. but I know you all understand my condition too kan.. Huhu.. Miss you all lah.. :( ......................
Anyway, today is a productive day. A jobless girl (girl eh? :D) woke up at 7am, bathe, making breakfast, eat panadols (sick again... huhu~), mopped the floor, clean dapur masak, taking out all old clothes (yang lama-lama tak pakai tu~) and washed. Nampak sgt xde kerja kan? Muahaha~ Then facebooking~ While wandering around, saw some festkum pictures.. Tibaa je rasa sayu je.. huhu~ miss all my friends.... :(
Actually uolz, many people said that it's a mistake for me joining festkum.. coz I'm bazir-ing my time rather than looking for jobs.. :( Tak lah.. Uolz, I think again for many times, and I still think that it's not a mistake.. I can travel, relax my mind, meet a lot of new friends, good experience! I even cuba bakat for pembaca berita under RTM booth dat day.. Kelakar dohhh.. haha~ And, kelakar juga when I won the karaoke competition organized by Filem Negara. Actually kan, cerita asalnya, only got 5 prizes, and kelima-lima kawan I including me la, join this competition.. U want to know nyanyi lagu ape? Haaaa... I bet you don't know the song! hahaha! Coz it's lagu koporat Filem Negara dohhh.. hahaha~ Then I won the first prize. Tiba je! I never sing K kot.. Got once la when I join singing competition during Form 3 with my friend, got consolation prize. Then never sing except caroling during Christmas. Hahaha~ Nak pecah perut gelak kot when 5 of us got the prize! :) Senyum lebar bila terkenang memori indah...
Well, kenangan indah although I sakit mata during the event and got sick after coming back~ Haha~ Let's see the picture below. Looks like after cry for few hours kan? Hahaha~ Sakit mata la.. Plus sleep at 4am, woke up at 7/8am~ Haha~ Kenangan manis! ^^
Anyway, today will be another day looking for job! Oh ya, I found a programme which really suits people who studied business, especially AINI AZMI!!! Makcik!!! Datang lah sini kerja!!! KAMI RINDU ANDA!!!! hahahaha~ Tapi nanti I cite na! Tapi uolz boleh g google dulu or g website dia.. It's called FSTEP. Anyone who ever joined this is seriously welcomed to share with me your experience or tell me more about it! ^^ Outz dulu~ Update later....! ^^❤❤ Daily Vitamin ❤ :
If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.
- St. Clement of Alexandra -
:: There's A Hero In You ::
Thursday, December 30, 2010
There's time when I feel so helpless
and no stars could be seen in the sky,
as if hopes are all gone
as if it's too hard to carry on
as if maybe it's the end of life
But I've always almost forgotten,
that even there's no stars,
the moon is always shine brightly in the corner of the dark
There's just some moment when things are out of control
when dreams shattered
when people deny you
when you started not to believe on yourself..
Please hold on...
There's always a voice telling me to do the right thing
I should search the strength inside me,
Build the faith on myself
and carry on..
Dedicate this song, Hero - Mariah Carey to whoever feels hopeless and thinking of giving up.. You, you're precious and you can only get up by yourself, find the hero inside you, stand up and carry on.. You're strong, and don't think that it's an end, it's always another beginning...
There's a hero If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid Of what you are
There's an answer If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road, when you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand For you to hold
You can find love If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone Tear them away
Hold on there will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
:: Busy weeks ::
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Hmm.. Anyway, do you guys know that every graduates will have the same kind of so called "interview session" by EVERYBODY! Aunty, uncle, lecturers, close friends, long-lost friends! Urgh. Okay fine. No problem for asking and care about us okay. Questions like:
number 2, have you applied any job?/what job you got?
For me, yah, still jobless. ^^ But I'm no longer in depressed baby. See, everyone has their own blessing from God. In Malay, we say, semua orang ada rezekinya sendiri. In Chinese, we say, 神赐给我们每一个人都有不同的恩典。I'm not having a permanent job now like other ex-coursemates, now. But I'm not doing nothing in my life day by day. Maybe what I'm doing now seems nothing for you all, but it's useful for my life!
I'm learning writing Jawi, learning play guitar, improving my cooking skills, and currently helping my uni cultural centre, which we called it as Pusat Kebudayaan UKM. In short, I called it as PUSKEB. I am working as a volunteer. I don't ask anything from them. I just wanted to join and help, and I learned! Though 3 years I have spent in Puskeb, but I was still learning how to run an event. You might see it as nothing. Useless. But it's precious moment for me!
You asked me what I'm doing now. I answered still looking for a job.
You asked again WHY I still couldn't find a job. Hellooooo? Ask God. K? I a-m doing, trying to get a job. Who doesn't want a permanent job?
You asked me again, y working volunteer? You don't want money? Helloooooo?? Who don't need income to survive? What kind of question is that??! Then you asked, what kind of you are you looking? As a reporter? I answered, I don't mind. If it's for me, I will take it. But I hope not reporter.
THEN,,,,, you asked AGAIN. Why you want a job which is not in your studies?
Okay, like this. In my eyes, what I study, is a knowledge. If I could get a job in this field, that's a gift from God. However, I don't think that what you study should be your future. Com'on!! Why you wanted to fix your life in a box? There's soooooo many things in this world that I wanted to learn! If I said, I wanted to be a wedding planner, own a shop, doing one-stop service from planning to services like video & photography shooting, and meanwhile, I wanted to own a kindergarten school together with my mom, are you shocked? People, we all have dreams. Don't measure success, baby. Success is different for everyone. If I could be a good guitar player, I'm successful! If I could bought a car for my mom, I'm successful! Dream is what lead people to move forward and never give up. I didn't say that I will get what I dreamed, but maybe it will lead me to another journey which is better plan from God to me.
I've joined "The Largest Guitar Performance" event listed in Malaysia Guinness Book of Record as LO. 1000+ of guitarist! Seriously, this is the best event I ever joined! One week staying in UKM again to help up the registration and workshop, then the show. And, we all get a free guitar as a return. :) A gift. We all never expect anything, just to help since Puskeb really need us to be secretariat. People, A GUITAR! It's listed in my life-time wish list, okay? And I got it now. One checked!!! :)
1st of December, going to Istana Budaya helping up Puskeb for the soft launch of FEStKUM 2010. And we all are given a gift again! Free Natrah Theather show okay!!! :) Seriously unexpected! :)
Starting tomorrow, will be back to UKM again maybe until 15th or 16th, then heading to North, maybe UiTM, Unimap, USM or UUM. Either one. Coz we all will divided into groups for this FEStKUM event. Another trip! :) Excited! So maybe will update with you all again end of this month! hehe.. See you all again soon! Muacks! ^^
:: 11 November 2010 ::
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Oh ya, kalau nak rasa pecal ayam tu, ia terletak di Pusat Hentian Kajang, depan kedai mamak Shakers. Kat situ memang famous dengan pecal lele. (Ngehehe.. sorry gambar tak de lak.. Next time k? :D)
Awal-awal pagi ni dok bosan pulak.. :( Jay ada dekat Bentong, Pahang, kawan-kawan semuanya tengah dibuai mimpi.. Huhu.. Jadi I ni ape lagi, layan blog Teratak Dayang_Jack. Kepada yang suka cari resipe2 masakan, bolehlah jenguk blog ni. I suka sangat setiap kali jenguk2 blog ni. Rasa macam nak masak terus je! Haha. Tengah belajar cara nak masak nasi lemak and sambal sebenarnya ni.. Dah pernah try masak sambal.. Tapi.. Tapi.. Hahaha.. Entahlah.. I rasa macam tak sesedap yang I makan dekat kedai ataupun yang dimasak oleh Kak Siti jer! Hahahaha.. Anyway, Asam Rebus Udang dalam blog tu macam menarik and simple je. Maybe nak try esok! Ahaks! Boleh makan udang sbb Jay xde! Hehe.. Jay makan sotong, ayam, daging n ikan laut je tau! Pilih makan tol.. hehehe..
Sambil-sambil tu I juga edit gambar sikit-sikit. Baru dapat belajar cara nak blur kan bahagian-bahagian dalam gambar yang kita rasa perlu untuk menfokuskan lagi subjek. Dulu I pakai jer blur tool. Tapi kan, macam kurang memuaskan. Sebenarnya yang I belajar tu ialah dia nak licinkan permukaan kulit model dalam gambar. Tapi I pakai tuk blur kan gambar pulak. Haha. Tak pe lah.. Janji rasa memuaskan dengan hasil gambar. Kan? :D
Gambar ini menggunakan teknik blur di belakang subjek yang chomel tu~ Tujuan tentulah untuk menfokuskan subjek tu! hehe. Anyway, subjek ini telah ditouchupkan sedikit dengan makeup digital iaitu menggunakan Photoshop. :D Gambar ni amek time nak buka puasa di Pizza Hut Warta Bangi dengan Jay. :)
Gambar ini ada juga guna teknik blur. Tapi macam tak nampak sangat. Hahaha! Oh ni baju kurung sebab pergi kenduri dengan Jay pada Ahad yang lepas! Hari yang riang! :D
Caption:Snow Ice Durian :: Kiri Atas ::
Snow Ice Yam :: Kiri Bawah ::
Snow Ice Strawberry :: Kanan Atas ::
Snow Ice Blueberry :: Kanan Bawah ::
I akan suggest kalian makan yang perisa durian dan yam. Kerana menggunakan perasa asli (kot). Tapi yang strawberry dan blueberry memang sesangat manis! Pendek kata macam makan jem roti. :D
Kalian, yang baju pink tu Ella namanya. Jay panggil dia freehair! :DYang bertudung chomel tu namanya Aini. Nak lawat blog dia? Silakan na.. klick
Yang lelaki tu yang buat-buat chomel tu nama dia Azrin. Tapi kitorang panggil dia Kecik je. I pun tak tahu nape panggil dia Kecik. Mungkin dia ingat dia kecik sangat kot. Hahaha. Tapi kan, dia takut bangat dengan sesuatu yang kecik-kecik.. Kan kan? Cuba teka. hahaha :D
Tengok gambar last ni mesti kalian nak kata I tamak kan? Hahahaha!Kalian pun pergi lah makan kat situ, then bagitau kat I ape lagi yang sedap na! :D




