:: Back to where I belong to =) ::

Hi! Happy Thursday! ^^
Time flies. A month time spending with family now only left 8 days..


CNY is going to end soon too. Another 7 days. :(
Ngek. Dun wan it to end so soon can or not?
Or, make the clock tick slower, perhaps? :(

The moment I appreciate the most throughout this holiday
is when I'm spending my time with my family.
Know what, I was shocked when my mum told me last week
that she realized that I had changed.
No longer that bad-tempered,
but matured.
Haha. Mum, I've grown up. No longer 18 or 20.
But 23 and 3 months now.
Well, 25 according to Lunar Calendar.


Wrinkles are starting to say hi to me.


Well, it also means that you're no longer 36.
I remember your age at 36 clearly.
Coz once I asked your age when we are at our old house,
in the kitchen.
And you answered 36.
Which is also the year my brother came to the world,
came to our family.

36 is gone. 46 is where you are now.
12 years. You're still looking young,
just like 12 years before.
But you're no longer as healthy as before.
Kinda worried, is thinking of canceling my dream looking for
an independent life in other land.

I've to re-plan. 1 year maybe.
After 1 year, perhaps it's time to look after my family.
Sister might be studying uni at that time.
Brother is going to sec school.
Teen. No longer a child.
I know, you can't handle it yourself.
I'll coming back and give you a hand,
I promise.

Just, maybe it's not easy to leave someone.
God, lead my way, please?
I need your wisdom,
I need your guidance.
Light my path,
lead my way...

Say hi to my grandma.
It's last Sunday. My mum, sister and I went to our kebun in my hometown,
Tondong, Bau.
Actually my sis and I are the one who follow my mum and my grandma.
Want to know what we had done?


Bet you won't believe it.
With selipar jepun, track suit (belongs to my Form3 cousin),
I petik lada aka black pepper that you guys used to eat.
Haha. Sorry no photo during we all petik lada.
Not really a right time to have a photoshot session.
Unless you want to fall. Haha.
Spend like 2 hours petik lada,
then we went back (to my hometown house, Bau)
Honestly,
it feels good.


My grandma. Very sihat. 60 plus, almost 70.
Still working, still love kerja kebun,
still love cooking.
Eh nope, I love her cooking!

My uncle. Single and available.
Bila you mau kahwin, uncle?
Haha. I want more cousin leh!

Introduce you all to my mum. :)
She's 46. Yes, she is. :)

Mummy, I love you~

Mummy, I love you in this picture.
Will be my best picture of the year.
Love your laughter,
it makes me remembers your laughter forever.

I really hope of coming back very soon.
I miss here already.
Miss my family.
I want to back to where I belong to.
My hometown,
my family,
my mum...

:: When ur ex engaged ::

If you shivered once you saw your ex's current engagement photo,
what does that means?




Dar, hug me tight. Tell me that the one I love is you...

5/2 = Moody

Hi! Sorry I've been away for so long and left this blog not updated. Well anyway, firstly let me greet every Chinese in every corner of the world, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! Wish everyone and your loved ones good health and great wealth in the Year of the Golden Rabbit! :)

For your information, I'm currently in Kuching my hometown! Back here on 21st Jan and will stay here till 18th Feb. Know why? :)) Well, sorry for not updating my latest status here. Hehe. I'm finally employed! :))) Finally I got my job! First mission in this new year of 2011 is achieved! Thanks to everyone who had always been around me during my hard times. :) Especially to my Mr. Polar Bear, Farin, Kechik, my Technical gang, Leesan, SuetNie and lots lots more! They have been very caring when I'm jobless... Thanks agaiN! :)

My company will be Pelangi Publishing. Yes, the reference books that we are all very familiar with during our shcool time! :) It's located at Bangi. So it's kinda near. No need to wait for train and all. Take bus je. (But still dunno the bas route is how. hahaha! ) Anyway, my job is basically Online Marketing Executive, which is another job post than what I applied for. They offer me this job and I take it as a gift and plan from God. I believed there's a reason for this planning and I will work for a good future with this given opportunity.


However, I'm not really in a good mood today. Just got to know that, my ex. Ehem. Yes, my ex. He is getting engaged today! A bit down. Dunno what to say. So, hope today nobody come to my house. I really no interest in anything right now. Mr. Polar Bear, sorry. Don't mean to hurt you. Actually you don't need to care what I said, you just need to come to me and ignore all my bullshit. But I know you have your limit for you patience, too. So I would rather keep myself in silence now. Hope you would come to me soon. Please?

Got to arrange my emotions a bit.... Bye.

:: 10 things about my Polar Bear ::

People says, loving someone needs no reason. True also, you don't need some specific reason to love someone. Coz once the 'reason' is no longer you found it in him or her, then do you still love him or her? Hmm.. Let's don't see it as reasons, let's put it as the good in him/her. I am learning to see the good in my Mr. Polar Bear aka Jay.

Sometimes, I think I am kinda demand, put too much hope on him, hoping that he could do this and that. Okay, eg, you're angry with your lover, and you hope so much that he would know why you are angry. You hope that he could guess, at least guess what happened before you get angry and pujuk you. Or, you hope that he will know what you need before you tell.

Jay is kinda slow in this matter. He can't guess me (sometimes). Which made me really mad, which made me do mad things like throwing handphones bla bla bla~ haha~ Ya, I ganas k~ ;P However, he's good indeed. He's the only one could trying to understand me all this while. K, to make it easier, let me state 10 things which he made me love him more! :)

1. He'll try to convince me in my decision. Example: We're planning on a date and tiba jeh I merajuk and said "I don't want to go". Reason: I dunno what to wear or I'm rushed. He'll wait downstairs of my house and said, don't worry, I don't mind what you wear. How about wear XXX and XXX? I like it when you wore it last time. :) *Tink!* Done. :)

2. He'll always try to fulfill my wish if he could. Example: I'm craving for XXX :'( Then he'll try to bring me to eat XXX maybe not on that day but he will. :) In short, he never let me starve. He feeds me well. Hahaha~

3. When I get sick, he's the one who buy medicine for me. :)

4. He remembers the date when my period comes and reminds me to buy Kotex and don't drink cold drinks. And when I'm confused which Kotex to buy, he'll help me to make a choice. Many guys cannot do this as some even think that it's something dirty. But he knows how precious women are and don't think that accompany girlfriend buying Kotex is a shame. :)

5. He eats whatever food that I cooked. O.o~ haha~ Even though the food is just so-so. For right now, he had tasted my chicken rice, ayam masak halia & kicap, ayam masak cendawan, tomyam, sayur campur, bolognese spaghetti, nasi goreng, toasted bread, potato wedges, glutinous rice balls, corn and seaweed soup. (There's more I think, but I can't recall dy~ haha~)

6. We had been together for 503 days till today. :) And we still sms each other like we just met. Never late reply, never lost in space, never blaming that sms is tiring.Indeed, we started e-mail each other now to foster our relationship. When we quarrel, or when each other are facing some other problems, e-mail is a good way. We could write as much as we could, pour out everything and seriously, try it out with your partner too! If you found out that sms couldn't work, slow talk couldn't work, try e-mail or write him/her a letter. Old-school but it somehow works! :)

7. In December 2009 when I was off to South Korea, he bought me a little tortoise (a soft toy) for me and want me to bring it to Korea, so that I could hold it whenever I miss him. :)

8. Recently, he just bought a new netbook, and it's in purple color. Know why? Coz he said that he remembered that I love purple. :) He's just sweet!

9. He loves kid, he loves baby. He loves to layan his sister's children. One is 9 years old, one is 7 years old and another one is just 8 days old. His gentle heart really melts me. He looks strict but he's gentle and caring!

10. If he only has 20 in his wallet, he'll share 10 with me if I'm broke. So do I. Between us, money is not the most important thing. Coz we put each other more important than money. We never mind sharing our own money with each other, even though we're not married yet.

It has been 503 days darling! ^^ Many things happened between us and I know all you've done is because you love me. I promise in this year of 2011, I will do my best to make my life together with my family and you, a better one. And let's work together darling! Let's appreciate each other more and love each other more than before~ I dunno whether am I or are you the destiny for each other, but we pray for it... :)

credits: sketchesofmylife-jing.blogspot.com

:: 11 November 2010 ::

~\(≧▽≦)/~

Hi semua! :D I pun tak tau ni nk ucap selamat pagi ke selamat malam.. Maklumlah sekarang ni pukul 4.22 pagi.. Hahaha~ Inilah kesannya akibat daripada tidur awal sangat. I rasa I terlelap pukul 11 malam tadi kot. Terbangun lak pukul 12.30pagi. :S (Kalau nak tau tu pulak ialah kesan makan terlampau kenyang. ^^ Dah sekian lama tidak pernah I habiskan Pecal Ayam seorang. Selama ini I akan bahagikan nasi separuh kepada Jay and ayam kepak hanya ambil yang tengah tu je.. =.= Memandangkan Jay tak dapat nak teman I malam ini, terpaksalah I habiskan semua makanan dalam pinggan.. Memang kenyang gile2! Btw, thanks Kak Siti belanja mamam! :D) Kak Siti tu housemate I terchinta! Nak kirim salam I boleh tolong kirimkan~ hehe.. :)

Oh ya, kalau nak rasa pecal ayam tu, ia terletak di Pusat Hentian Kajang, depan kedai mamak Shakers. Kat situ memang famous dengan pecal lele. (Ngehehe.. sorry gambar tak de lak.. Next time k? :D)

Awal-awal pagi ni dok bosan pulak.. :( Jay ada dekat Bentong, Pahang, kawan-kawan semuanya tengah dibuai mimpi.. Huhu.. Jadi I ni ape lagi, layan blog Teratak Dayang_Jack. Kepada yang suka cari resipe2 masakan, bolehlah jenguk blog ni. I suka sangat setiap kali jenguk2 blog ni. Rasa macam nak masak terus je! Haha. Tengah belajar cara nak masak nasi lemak and sambal sebenarnya ni.. Dah pernah try masak sambal.. Tapi.. Tapi.. Hahaha.. Entahlah.. I rasa macam tak sesedap yang I makan dekat kedai ataupun yang dimasak oleh Kak Siti jer! Hahahaha.. Anyway, Asam Rebus Udang dalam blog tu macam menarik and simple je. Maybe nak try esok! Ahaks! Boleh makan udang sbb Jay xde! Hehe.. Jay makan sotong, ayam, daging n ikan laut je tau! Pilih makan tol.. hehehe..

Sambil-sambil tu I juga edit gambar sikit-sikit. Baru dapat belajar cara nak blur kan bahagian-bahagian dalam gambar yang kita rasa perlu untuk menfokuskan lagi subjek. Dulu I pakai jer blur tool. Tapi kan, macam kurang memuaskan. Sebenarnya yang I belajar tu ialah dia nak licinkan permukaan kulit model dalam gambar. Tapi I pakai tuk blur kan gambar pulak. Haha. Tak pe lah.. Janji rasa memuaskan dengan hasil gambar. Kan? :D

Gambar ini menggunakan teknik blur di belakang subjek yang chomel tu~ Tujuan tentulah untuk menfokuskan subjek tu! hehe. Anyway, subjek ini telah ditouchupkan sedikit dengan makeup digital iaitu menggunakan Photoshop. :D Gambar ni amek time nak buka puasa di Pizza Hut Warta Bangi dengan Jay. :)

Gambar ini ada juga guna teknik blur. Tapi macam tak nampak sangat. Hahaha! Oh ni baju kurung sebab pergi kenduri dengan Jay pada Ahad yang lepas! Hari yang riang! :D

Bawah ni gambar-gambar semasa I lepak-lepak dengan sahabat-sahabat I (Kechik, Ella, Aini) di Iceroom-Bangi pada 09 November 2010. Hari yang menceriakan! :D I suke gilee x3 dengan snow ice durian yang I makan tu. Shedap gile! Seriously! :) Next time boleh bawa Jay pergi. Kitorang addicted dengan durian! :D

Caption:
Snow Ice Durian :: Kiri Atas ::
Snow Ice Yam :: Kiri Bawah ::
Snow Ice Strawberry :: Kanan Atas ::
Snow Ice Blueberry :: Kanan Bawah ::

I akan suggest kalian makan yang perisa durian dan yam. Kerana menggunakan perasa asli (kot). Tapi yang strawberry dan blueberry memang sesangat manis! Pendek kata macam makan jem roti. :D

Kalian, yang baju pink tu Ella namanya. Jay panggil dia freehair! :D
Yang bertudung chomel tu namanya Aini. Nak lawat blog dia? Silakan na.. klick
Yang lelaki tu yang buat-buat chomel tu nama dia Azrin. Tapi kitorang panggil dia Kecik je. I pun tak tahu nape panggil dia Kecik. Mungkin dia ingat dia kecik sangat kot. Hahaha. Tapi kan, dia takut bangat dengan sesuatu yang kecik-kecik.. Kan kan? Cuba teka. hahaha :D

Tengok gambar last ni mesti kalian nak kata I tamak kan? Hahahaha!
Kalian pun pergi lah makan kat situ, then bagitau kat I ape lagi yang sedap na! :D

Love,

Jingjing ❤

p/s:: Kalian, ni dah pukul 6 pagi dah.. :S Time tuk I titon! Juga Time Jay baru nak bangun lepas tido berapa jam je.. Baru je Jay sampai di Bentong pukul 2 pagi tadi, then terus practice kejap sampai pukul 3 pagi.. Kesian dia penat.. Gambate Kudasai Jay! Minggu ni tak dapat kami bersua.. Huk huk.. Tak pe.. I menanti saat-saatnya. :)

[suara air mata]

Jay,


Cintaku, ingin ku bagi padamu..


Tidak dapat ku nafikan,
kenangan silam terlalu susah bagiku lupakan..


Tapi Jay,


Insyaallah..


Ku ikhlas ingin lepaskan si dia,
Ku ikhlas ingin cinta padamu..


Hanyamu..


Hanyamu..

Cinta 4 Segi

You, I rasakan, I geram sangat-sangat tadi. Bukan sebab I ternampak you date dengan dia, tapi sebab I yang gatal tangan g tengok page dia and comment-comment dia dalam page you. Bahagianya you. :( I bukan orang macam tu kan? Yang boleh memahami you macam itu.. I rasakan, you mesti suka sangat-sangat, sayang sangat-sangat kat dia.


Honestly kan, I jealous. :(


Tapi kan, I pun ada si dia, yang memahami I macam dia memahami you kot. Tapi kenapa kan, I selalu nampak kekurangan yang ada padanya dan kebaikan pada you sedangkan you yang tinggalkan I?

Cinta 4 segi lah katakan. :)

Surat kepada X

Dear korang,

Allow me to use Malaysian language ya. :) Kan sekarang TV kita hari-hari berpesan kepada kita supaya menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan. Chewah! Saya ialah salah seorang, kay! Semangat "Bahasa jiwa bangsa" nih! :)

Okaylah, I teruskan kepada niat asal I ye. I nak tulis surat ni bukan kepada korang. Hehe. Tapi korang dah terbaca, tak apalah. I halalkan kay. Hehe. Surat ini ialah kepada seseorang yang ingin saya lepaskan dalam hidup saya setelah sekian lama I simpan dalam hati. Kepada Jay, sekiranya surat ini menimbulkan sebarang kemarahan, I minta maaf ye. Jay kena tahu niat asal I tulis surat ni, ye? :)

Dear X,

You, mesti you tengah bahagia kan sekarang? Bila I nampak you angkat call dan pergi ke suatu tempat yang lebih senyap dan bersembang lama, I tahu you sedang bahagia. Bila I tengok status you dalam Facebook, I tahu you sedang bahagia.

You, dia sangat sabar dengan I. Walaupun I beritahu kepadanya yang I masih tidak rela 100% melupakan you. Dia tunggu. Dengan setianya.

You, adakah sebab di sebalik kita berjumpa, bercinta dan berpisah adalah mengenali jodoh kita yang sebenarnya?

You, kawan-kawan I kata you tidak pernah mencintai I. I tahu bukan begitunya. Kerana I dapat merasainya. I masih boleh mengingati degupan jantung you semasa kita bersama. Cuma I tak tahu, kenapa you tinggalkan I bersendirian. You tidak kesian kat I? You tidak rindu kat I? (I mean selama 2 bulan itu..)

You, cinta I terhadap you selama 3 bulan tersebut, janganlah you meragu-ragu keikhlasan hati ini. Kerana tidak pernah I menipu, tidak pernah I curang kepada cinta kita. Namun, 2 bulan tersebut bagaikan bertahun-tahun kepada I. Disebabkanlah hati ini tidak lagi mampu menampung kesedihan dan keperitan tersebut, I membuatkan keputusan yang seolah-olahnya menusuk pisau dalam hati I sendiri. Sebenarnya, pernah I sangka yang you akan menggenggamkan cinta kita pabila I melepaskannya. Namun tidak. You melepaskan begitu sahaja, dengan kata mendoakan kami bahagia.

I mengenali dia, bukan dengan niat curang. Tetapi dengan niat nak mengenali you. Mungkin you tak tahu, dialah yang memberitahu I keadaan you, emosi you, apa yang you sedang lakukan selama 1 bulan tersebut.

I tidak tahu sejak bila, tapi dia menggembirakan I. Dari kesedihan, dia membawa I kembali kepada hidup asal I. Dia memberikan I senyuman. Keadaan ini seolah-olah pernah berlaku di antara kita, kan? Tapi you, dia sentiasa menganggap you sebagai sahabatnya. You, jangan sesekali menyalahkannya, ye? (Tapi I tahu, mungkin I hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan sahaja selama ini..)

You, dah lebih dari setahun, masih payah bagi I untuk melepaskan you. Sebenarnya, I lagi mengharapkan kita dapat jadi kawan seperti dahulu, kerana ia lagi senang bagi I untuk melepaskan you. Tapi I tahu, tak mungkin..

You, I nak lepaskan you dah, boleh? Walaupun I sentiasa mencuba, tapi setiap kalinya ada apa-apa berita tentang you, I sukar nak mengawal diri untuk tidak mengambil berat tentang you. I tahu, I sedang melakukan sesuatu yang tidak adil bagi dia.. I tahu.. Tapi sekarang, I minta izin untuk lepaskan you, boleh? I nak kan diri I bahagia, nak kan you bahagia. Walaupun I tak tahu sejauhmanakah jodoh I dengan dia, tapi I ingin lebih menghargai dia dalam hidup I, yang menyayangi I dengan sepenuh hatinya.

You, mulai hari ini, I nak lepaskan you, genggamkan cinta si dia kepada I.. I pernah sangat mencintai you, meskipun kita dah berpisah setahun lebih, masih terdapat banyak kalinya I mengalirkan air mata disebabkan oleh you.. Terutamanya hari itu apabila you muncul dalam mimpi I.. Seolah-olahnya ia adalah benar yang you sudi kembali kepada I.. Tapi semuanya mimpi yang tak akan menjadi kenyataan, kan you?

Exam - Down - Up!

Hey people! I had my exam yesterday at 3.30pm and it's bad.. It's not good. It's disappointment.. It's sad.. Honestly I dunno how to answer the case study. What I study doesn't seem to come out in the exam. All the classical theories until contingency theories, leadership, planning.. Hmm.. I was scared enough when I'm out from the exam hall and people are discuss their answer.. Hmm.. I know I might have wrong answer dy.. From 40 marks, I have 15 marks answer with my own opinion.. Haha. Hmm..

So after reach my hostel, I shop! For long time I never shop things that I wanted (at H-Mart je lah :P), I bought sweets, keropok ketam, keropok ikan for my kittens, new pen (as my pen's ink finished yesterday during exam), raisins, and I bought dinner. So everything cost me RM10. I was happy after buying things and after see my kittens eat the fish keropok. :)

Anyway, Suet Nie, please say thanks again for your mum! :) See, your mum never meet me and never know who am I.. But she did a lot for me.. More than a stranger do.. Thanks for letting me feel like at home.. Thanks a lot.. I was touched when you bring lunch from home for me.. Bring drinking water from home for me.. And help me sew my pants.. Hoho.. See I'm touched again! Hehe. Remember say thanks to your lovely mum and don't jealous yah Suet! Hehe.. :P

Okiesh.. Am gonna coding data again! And Jay is going to back from Perlis today! Yeay! :)

For Jay

Jay,


:( Cannot message or call you.. Sad.. :( Plus now sakit pewut.. Huk.. Panadol da abes.. Huk.. :( And you're so far away.. Huk.. Hungry.. And no more special delivery.. Huk.. :( Kerja tak siap lagi.. And tak dpt nak message you.. Huk.. :( Miss you....... :(

Nak you call call... :(

in the process back to normal

Yuhuuu! Jing's back! Anyway, latest news about jing? Hmm. I'm currently in the process of *pengjimatan!* Huh. I goreng bihun this morning with egg and bihun + perencah udang. Then now having *telur rebus* as my lunchner! >__<

Anyway, I am now very sakit telinga heard words like counting time, countdown to anything. Huh. I had things not yet done and I had to make it done before I left this uni. >__<

By the way, Jay left me for a week! *Sob sob* He back his hometown dy for a week and was thinking how to go through a week without him! Huk.. Hope he enjoy the time being with his family though.. Will be mishing u! :')

*Special Delivery*

Got my *special delivery* from Jay just now! :) THANKS Jay! ^^3

From Jay.

A text message from Jay today at 6.35pm. A message that drops my tears. I wrote it on a paper and put in on my soft board. To remind me every second. Stay focus. Jing, think of the people who loves you and help you all this moment.. Your life is not yours alone. Think about your family.. Who put so much hope on you.. ... Have faith, Jing. Never be afraid to stand up and go through the tough moment. Hang on there. There's hope...

... ...


Thanks, Jay.


Love,
Jing.

Lunch with Lurve

Gonna lunch with Jay @ Hentian Kajang and buy some daily stuff too. Weee! Long time din chat with him dy. Oh ya, Jay buy me dinner yesterday and he send it to my kolej.. *Terharu!* hehe. He bought rice, tauge & tomyam chicken. :) Thanks Jay! *lurve* hehe. Okay, I know. Don't vomit at my page. Hahaha! Bye~

Kittys are B-A-C-K!!!

Hey people, the long story will tell u other day yah! These are the little kittens I meant in my last blog post! HEhE.. I just let the pic do the talking yah! It's raining heavily outside.. *Takuttt!* hehe.. Enjoy~ :)

"I'm the naughtiest! Gagagagaga! :P"

These is what we call, "Mom"... Every mom are the same.
No matter a human, or an animal.

"Nyum.. Nyum.. Nyumm.." It's delicious, for a baby.
But who knows how a mother feels when feeding their baby?
...
Only mother knows...

They drink for around fifteen minutes.. And they turn up....
...
...

*S-L-E-E-P-I-N-G*

Hehe.. Sayaaaaaaaaaang! them!!!

See how cozy the babies are under their mother's arm?
Get your mom a call if she's still here. She misses you.. :)
But if you mom's no longer here, don't be sad..
I believe she don't want to see you sad..
She's at the better place.. :)

The brown kitten: "Ewww... You snores!"
The bottom brown kitten: "Emm... zzzZzzzzz....."

The brown kitten: "Hmm.. Now is better... ... zzzZzzzz...."

The bottom brown kitten: "Oohh! You don't snores but you stink! I don't want u!"

The brown kitten: "Okay.. Whatever... zzZZzzzz... ..."

Oopps! Awake pulak! hehehe.. Shhh.... Okok.. Go sleep lah... Mmmuacks!