A letter for a friend...

Friend, I miss you...
I miss your laughter, I miss your company,
I miss you...

Many times, I thought I would have the courage to contact you,
But I don't..
I owe you a sorry,
and an explanation..

I knew,
something had change between us..
The way we talk,
the way we say goodbye...

I'm sorry...
Sorry for not telling you what is happening at that moment..
Sorry for kept so long..
Sorry that I thought this would be better..
Sorry for making our friendship getting worse..

Remember once I said,
You're a gift from God to me?
There's once I thought I can live alone,
but God gave me a miracle - you.
I might just be one of your friend that you would give a hand anytime,
but you did mean a lot to me..
When I was having hard time breaking up with my ex,
when I was having hard time with my assignments, exams, final project,
financial problems, family problems,
and you know how to handle my temper,
you know the reason I laugh, the reason I cry...

That night,
when you're having fun with your friend,
I thought you're just around our house's area..
Asking you doing me a favor buy me mineral water is only an excuse,
coz I was worrying about you,
for not coming back home
yet you said just having a dinner.
Once knowing that you were having some drink with your friend,
I was angry..
Angry for not telling me first,
angry that you still go for a drink yet you still need to work for the next morning..
I waited for you, till I fall asleep..
Once I woke up, it's 2am.
and there's no missed call, no sms..
until 4 something, I received you sms,
saying that you're not coming back.
I was angry,
angry that you choose to stay until morning,
angry that you make yourself tired,
angry...

I apologize that I didn't tell you,
I thought we would had a time sitting together and talk this out,
but we didn't have the chance..
Not even see each other for a long time..

I do miss you girl, miss to laugh with you every moment,
laugh for anything..
miss the moment we share everything..
miss the moment we cry together..

Lately, there's too much things that I wish to share with someone,
as it is too heavy to bear by oneself..
I wonder,
if you're here,
if I could tell you,
if... ...

... ...


I miss you, Suet Nie...